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Lost and loss
Sometimes months go by...years.School work ended and then there were tight schedules at work. I become very narrow, shutting out everything that isn't essential to get through the day. Today I saw that a friend had passed away in December, unexpectedly from a brain stroke. It shocked me, because in my mind we had written not so long ago. He was someone I felt honored to know, inspiring and kind. There were images I'd promised to send to him, but he won't get to see them. I've thought of him alot these last few weeks, and am perplexed and sad.
Today is the anniversary of my father's death, 14 years. I don't mention it to my mother. Perhaps she remembers, but doesn't mention it to me, either. She has been telling me of her dreams of him.
She dreamt of preparing his clothing for travel, but he kept eluding her in a large shopping mall in various stages of dress. It was a very funny dream. I told her of similar dreams from the past, but instead I had to get him the proper "card" to travel.
My own dreams lately are many, and mainly lucid and connected to day residue. I'm wandering between dimensions (game residue?) but there's nothing of games. Events from waking are depicted erroneously in the dreams and I constantly contest their validity, loudly, while dreaming, "That's not how it happened!" Sort of odd, as I had few lucid dreams before.
The only dream that didn't seem to be connected to day residue was about attending to a baby in a shelter far away, so tiny. I was singing a song from the 40's or 50's. The words were so evident in my dream, but now I remember nothing.
Dream Friday 22611
Having many dreams with little recall. I am generally working in them in a variety of professions. Last night I had started my own business sewing custom wedding dresses. I suppose a person could make a decent living. My grandmother did. They were lovely, although not typical.Must be better than my earlier idea of a get-a-way book store, although it could have been interesting. Originally, though, back in Tucson I had hoped to open a design shop, but was 30 minutes too slow in making up my mind and lost the property.
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There should be no surprise over the extent of States' and local government budget problems.
I wonder what to believe about solutions to economic woes all around the world as ideas begin to converge and move forward.
I was thinking about lemmings tonight. Lemmings do not run off the edge of a cliff on purpose. They migrate in great crowds and get shoved off the cliff from the pressure of the masses when they are misguided.
I hope we are wiser now.
Writer’s Block: Art imitating life
The NaturalQuake coincidence
Last night, out on the deck my mind wandered off to earthquakes. I was feeling we were due and imagined what it would be like if it occurred as I stood there. This morning at about 9:00, I walked into the park for a break. The weirdest thought popped into my head..this would be the best spot to stand if there was an earthquake. If the building fell over, it wouldn't hit me. Lol. (Actually the half dead cedar tree next to me would.)About an hour later there was a quake at Mount St. Helens. It was felt at Porter, a short distance from here. I didn't notice it.
