Dominion
Afraid that when I stop finding enjoyment in life, my body will start deteriorating. Happiness makes the body look strong, healthy, and youthful. Would be nice if the world continually told me how perfect I am but they stop at some point.
As such, there is spirit. Though, right now, my spirit manifests in the form of a tarnished public image. Perhaps I should pursue a more private spirit (so I can gaze at myself in my own mind… admire myself)? Well, there is always idolatry (a golden statue of myself, ha).
I recall moments over the past several days when I found myself dealing with the problem of generic public spirit, on some level (The Easter Bunny… patriotism). Moving from the public to the private, then, might involve dissolution of personal myth and personal legend. (rather than of personal history).
This is to say, there still isn’t much I desire. As such, actively seeking spiritual and emotional fulfillment hasn’t been working very well for me recently. Anyway, I’m considering Ti Chi to tighten the core and instill a sense of grandiosity (that’s really slow and of limited value, in my experience).
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