Archive for January, 2009
there would be sunlight
Somewhere, up there is the sun.I like to see it in my dreams and day dreams where I lay atop my car on a beach in Texas, and the waters and sand are warm. 20 years ago, it was enjoyable. These days, any sporadic break into daylight gives me ocular migraines.
My daughter very much liked the "Twilight" movie. I told her it was filmed up in the rainforest. She called today to say she had also read the book, and wondered how I could stand it up here with the all the rain and lack of sunlight. It's a work of fiction. It seems so strange for someone to say "I know what it's like up there in the Pacific NW, because I read it in a story about vampires." Nevertheless, it's true.
This winter when the storms are absent, there is fog. I had an illuminating experience one evening in the dark, in the fog. It had to do with a photograph from the past. The photo depicts a brilliant view of trees at sunset overlooking a pond. The colors are wonderful, and I've tried to find the spot where the picture was taken. It's in a drawer, and I hadn't thought of it for a couple of years now. About a month or so ago, I was driving home from another town at twilight and the fog wisping over the road became very dense, requiring me to watch the outer edge of the road. My view was focused and there was nothing else visible to distract my attention, until I saw a glimmer of water through a break in the fog. It was far down away from the road in a valley. I don't recall having seen any water there before in that area (and this was long before the floods of last week.) Suddenly I could also see the tree line in dark silhouette, and thought, "well, that's it, from the photo." From the direction, I noted that I'd been searching for the sunset, and all along it was the dawn. It was appropriate to consider, "Why do I see the end of day, rather than a beginning?" Most of the time in the fog, I am lucky to just to see the road. I surmised that it was the fact that there were no distractions that I noticed the pond.
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I really enjoyed that vision in the fog, but as far as I can tell now, it wasn't real. Wherever I was, I can't find it in the day. Maybe it was just a trick of the mind, a half-slumber or just imagining forms in the clouds on the road.
Oh well, real or not...lesson learned. Focus, and begin again.
snow and more snow
It's snowing again...Grrr or BrrrOn Christmas day, I chopped the snow on the deck into igloo blocks and tossed them off into the middle of the yard and shoveled about a quarter of the way down the street to try to get out. We had been blocked in for a couple weeks.
Of course it all melted two days later.
But it's back. Grrrr.
The good news is that I had the deck rebuilt last year, because the wood had rotted, so it is still standing.
