Archive for August, 2008

What I’ve Learned

Titles

“What I’ve Learned” is a title.  Titles are important to a post.  They should be descriptive.  And they should be easy to understand!  But a title isn’t enough…

Headings

See how a heading breaks up the content of a post?  Your eyes go directly to a heading when you first look at a post.  You see the headings and you understand at a glance that:

Note:  The above is easy to read because it is set apart using an unordered list.  And, this is a note.  You should immediately realize that something important is written here.  It is in bold text!

Lists

First I like to introduce a list with some text.  Then I like to start a list with a partial statement followed by a colon.  The following is an ordered list.  An ordered list:

  1. Uses numbers to define a sequence.
  2. Makes a statement about the order in which something occurs.
  3. Shows how many of a thing there are in a list of things.

Notes

An explanatory note can also be useful.  Usually they are put at the end of a post.  They might explain something about the post or they may be about the author.  They may be used to thank someone who was helpful.  Or they may cite references.  Explanatory notes are generally in italics.

August 29, 2008 • Tags: , , , • Posted in: General MR • No Comments

How do you date in 2008

I've no idea.

I was out Friday night for a casino trip with my mother. After a short while, when it seemed that there was little chance of winning at anything, I sat at a Kino machine where I could lose ever more slowly.

Casinos draw a variety of people. Some are driven, obsessed with the possibility of a big break allowed by luck which may or may not be influenced through the use of charms or rituals. It's curious to me, but I don't discount it entirely. I wonder if bad luck can be psi-missing event. You simply don't believe.

So in the casino, a fellow comes over expressly to speak to me. He was not gambling, but sat down and at first interviewed me about who I was and why I was here. Initially, I thought he worked for the casino as some sort of spy for the marketing group, because the questions were pretty specific, about me, the town, the facilities, the other entertainment. He was cute, young, seemed nice.

Conversation is a game that I'm not used to playing, but was aware of the game whole time watching the moves in my head. Some of it is very deliberate whether spoken or not. The moves: Although he said nothing aggressive, he entered my space by leaning forward close to my face while speaking and constantly stepping on my foot. He chased a couple off who wanted to sit there, protecting the space. Responding moves: I tried to end the conversation at the beginning by telling him how old I was (1) by telling him I was here with my mother (2) and then by telling him that I take care of her in my home. All the while I thought he was attractive and would be happy to follow him around just to look at him.

We talked about spies and religion and local volcanoes. I told him that some of the ash from Mount St. Helens covered patios in North Dakota, and that I was working in Arizona at the time. He said he didn't remember because he was 4.

I wondered if I'd been set up by a person who I knew who is a real practical joker (and she knew I would be there.) Four hours later he decided to go to wherever he was staying to sleep. He asked me to call him the next day. I didn't, but I did think about it. It was nice that he'd been talking to me; it made me feel attractive. If I had more time, I'd take a chance and be a friend.

I don't know what aggressive is. It may not have seemed so aggressive had the little toe he kept pressing not been broken three weeks ago. Maybe that's how people express interest today. Yet one of my favorite lines that we were choosing between a few months ago to be indirect code sentence to let another know the conversation was inappropriate or too heated at work was "You are standing on my foot." They didn't end up selecting that sentence, but it is still my favorite.
August 17, 2008 • Tags: , • Posted in: Dtwaaz LJ • 5 Comments

escapes

When you have a hectic life and are busy day and night, what do you think about when you have a free moment?

The things that cross my mind aren't likely to benefit me anytime soon.

Today's headlines say that they have the body of a Sasquatch and will roll it out for the world to see tomorrow. If it's real, I'm not headed to the woods anytime soon.
http://www.cnn.com/2008/US/08/14/bigfoot.body/index.html

I've always been a fan of Taps and Ghosthunters. This season it is international, and I catch bits and pieces while studying. For the past few weeks, it has bothered me that they are asking all their questions of any resident ghosts in English. In the last show, the leader explains that ghosts likely can communicate in any language. I dunno. It bugs me, perhaps because I want something to bug me outside of things I must do. If it were me, I'd take a pocket travel guide and ask questions in their own language. Of course the literature in those guides may be limited to simple phrases to find restaurants and hotels. I'm surprised they found nothing at the Cachtice Castle in Slovakia where Elizabeth Bathory once lived. Why wouldn't it be haunted? The EVP's they've collected at other sites are awesome.

I remember a phrase book that my father had that was printed during WWII. There were commands like "Raise your hands into the air!" They need a book like that. "Who are you! What are you doing here, Don't you know you can leave?"

Mainly my mind has been on the news at dinner, wondering where the missing little Anthony girl could be. I feel bad for the grandparents.

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I tried doing some artwork of a dream, by putting together a photo of my house and some of the ocean. It turned out pretty well. After looking at it, I wonder about the dream. Most of my house dreams are telling me something about my health. In fact, I was sick when I awoke, even dialing 911 in the dream briefly, but didn't say anything. Dreams are like ourselves with layers of meaning. It might also be exposing fear of debt. The house is sinking, I'm trapped and might drown. I am worried that a new roof will be needed soon and the falling prices might keep me from fixing it. I didn't think of it that way until after I put it into a picture. Who knows? It was a fun little photo to submit to the IASD Psiberdreaming Gallery for the September online conference.

I looked for Sao the other night in a lucid dream. There was a butterfly that appeared. The wings shifted in shapes and patterns in brilliant colors. If I get a chance, I'll try to create some artwork that could express that.
August 15, 2008 • Tags: , • Posted in: Dtwaaz LJ • 3 Comments

death and taxes

I was so sad to hear today that Sao passed away. I didn't know him personally, but have always been amazed at the artwork he submitted to the IASD PsiberDream galleries. It was the best I'd ever seen, actually, but of course that is just my opinion. It seemed the art didn't rest in one plane, the colors were so vibrant you could almost hear them. So alive. His observations were insightful and I can't remember when he missed a remote viewing target. (I don't know how people do that, but there are a few out there who have a lot of skill.
I was shocked that he'd passed away. It's like a crime that he's gone. Someone like that should be around to remind us how to find the beauty in sight and sound and see clearly.
He was young. I guess I just took it for granted that young, brilliant people wouldn't slip away.



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I don't feel like sleeping.
rambling...

A few weeks ago, I was going to post about death themes again...I filed it in my Word files because it is always on my mind and over-expressed (obsessive). But this blog is generally an exercise to improve my storytelling skills, so if that's what's on my mind, that's what will be in my journal. I've been dreaming about death lately.

In my dreams, in the past month, I've called 911 twice, and each time I've woken up sicker than a dog. The first time, my inner-ear was messed up and I couldn't even sit up in bed. In the second, I must have had some sort of ulcer attack or gall-bladder and fell to the floor writhing in pain. It's funny that there was no pain in the dream. Neither of these issues are 911 worthy, or life threatening, but the dreams initimated that I was at the edge of life and death.

The last dream was the kookiest. There was the cliff theme again, but this time I was alone in a house in a torrent of rain. The house goes over a cliff and lands in the ocean. At first it drifts along, but eventually flips upside-down. (At this point I think I might not be alive, like the "Pirate's of the Carribean - At World's End" movie -they have to flip the ship to return to the world of the living.) I still scramble about to find different crevices where there could be air. The house then breaks up and the debris collapsing around doesn't hit me. I get away and climb up onto a dock. The problem in the dream after that is to convince others that I'm not dead.

My homework last week was to write an opinion paper on a tax topic in the news, so I picked the only one that was in the local paper that day. My paper was about death taxes.

I read that George Carlin's last album was sort of directed to his own thoughts on aging and demise. I'll have to pick it up. Go with the flow.

My ex-father-in-law died on Easter. My daughter called. There was no one to send condolences to in North Dakota. It is sad, but he is with his Adeline. When she died (it was not so long ago) my ex and my daughter took him up to ND to bury her. He had a stroke more than a decade ago and could not speak, nor stand. He would not leave and fought everyone off, including the police, until he was allowed to stay there in a Nursing Home, close to her. It was also Tyler's birthday. Tyler was born last year, a few days shy of the 10th anniversary of my father's death as well. (I keep telling her that he looks just like my dad.) He does. He doesn't look like anyone else. He has the white-blond hair, blue eyes, facial structure and nose. I send airplanes, because my father's favorite place was in the sky. In my fantasy, he gets to live again. He never failed to enjoy life.

It's all just jumbled together, so many thoughts.

Alana called the other day. she said she'd been speaking to her dad and asked why they hadn't gone to see Irwin, so he reminded her that he wasn't alive. She said she'd forgotten. I sort of understand why a person wouldn't remember. I think of a lot of people who aren't around anymore, remembering them at their best times. Sometimes, I recall with a sudden grief that they aren't around, and then brush it off, and again remember them as they were. They are never really gone in our minds.


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My ear problem is like all my other problems. My doc says at least half the time for any problem that I'm there for..."It's because you're old." I was thinking the other day that she's been telling me that since I was in my 30's. I'm not "that" old. So I consulted a colleague with the same ear diagnosis. She says "Well, there's these grains of sand in your ear and they slide down into the tube in your ear like an hourglass." I said, "You mean I'm running out of sand?!" And some people standing around piped in "and these are the days of your lives."



According to Wikipedia, Ben Franklin said "nothing is to be certain but death and taxes"
August 1, 2008 • Tags: , • Posted in: Dtwaaz LJ • No Comments